the sliding scale

It's weird. Right now, I would be so excited just to have my normal energy back. Give me pills, give me pickline but for the love of god make me feel better. But really, once I feel better I am NOT going to want to be on the central line and once I am off that, I am NOT going to want to be on drugs of any sort and once I'm off drugs I'll NOT want to be taking pills at all.

So there's that problem. But right now, I keep thinking that I'd be okay with taking anti-biotics several months out of the year if it means I can live the life I want. But is that lowering my standards and more importantly... is it even true?